I‘ve been thinking about writing a year end blog post for more than a week now. But I can’t decide what to write about! Should I revisit & review the year gone by? Or should I write about resolutions for the coming year?
I could write about resolutions; but on second thought I rarely keep resolutions, although I really should. You ask why? I’m afraid I won’t stick to them & end up feeling way too guilty & miserable.
So, my brain tells me why go to all that trouble & better think of writing about something else.
Back to square one, what should my year end post be about? Think, my dear brain, think!
After a lot of thinking (& I’ll spare you by not putting into words the details of those thoughts) I’ve decided I’ll just follow my heart & write. You & I shall together discover what this post turns out about.
Ready or not, here I come! This sounds like I’m trying to scare you into not reading any further. Trust me, I’m not! I hope you’re still here & that you’ll make it to ‘the end!’
Talking about year end, what was your year end like last year, 2017? I bet it wasn’t much different from this year. I’m making this little assumption because my year end time feels a lot similar to last year’s.
It’s not like nothing has changed, as a matter of fact a lot of things have! But the feelings underneath it all, remains quite the same.
And, what is this ‘feeling’ & how do I describe it to you? One word (or probably two) comes to my mind when I think about this feeling- ‘bitter-sweet’.
Life is bittersweet, some say! I agree with them, life is indeed bittersweet. It is, it has always been & I’m pretty sure it always will be.
I remember the night of 1st January, 2018. It was a good night, we (me & my family) had a nice celebratory dinner. I went to bed after dinner & couldn’t go to sleep.
It was just like couple of other nights before that night. I was feeling anxious & (to be honest) pretty depressed thinking about my current non employability!
Most of us begin our journey into the professional world with almost too many hopes & expectations. But they don’t call it ‘the big bad world’ for no reason!
The big bad world will inevitably crush all our naive expectations & dreamy hopes. Some of us are good at coming to terms with that & some struggle with accepting the ways of the world.
I was going through a similar struggle from within. It isn’t pleasant to live inside a mind that is in turmoil. And, it wasn’t nice living inside my mind; which went into silent warfare every now & then!
Life wasn’t all bad even with my distressed mind. I was safe & sound within the walls of my home, along with my fam. We can never thank God enough for the well being of our loved ones, can we?
So, I guess life was bittersweet for me. And, I’m thankful & grateful for that.
That same night of 1st January, I along with my depressed mind started off this blog. We named it educated unemployed Indian, the most appropriate name I could think of at that time.
Some people say that depressed people can be very creative. Now, I don’t know whether it was creativity or depression that is the cause of this blog’s existence!
It’s been a year now and this blog has turned out to be my answer to all the distress over my non employability. Today, I no longer think of myself as educated unemployed Indian; rather as educated self-employed Indian!
There is a long way to go & a lot of work to do before I can achieve the above change in true sense. But that’s okay, because I’m not looking for any shortcuts here!
The past year had been a bitter one. It was most bitter dealing with so much of anxiety within the world of my thoughts.
And, the misery over seeing the wretchedness of the world outside! If you start thinking about everything that is wrong with the world, your mind will be gripped in a frenzy by thoughts of panic & fear.
Contradicting my own words, the past year had also been the most sweet one. I got to connect with my own thoughts like never before and connect with so many of you- my kindred spirits.
Sometimes a single kind thought can change one’s life. It wasn’t a single thought but to my good luck it was so many of your most kind thoughts, that has most definitely changed my life! I don’t think there was any other year or time of my life when I felt more encouraged & appreciated.
Thank you for being the sweet part of my bittersweet life.
This is the end of this blog post & I still don’t know what to call it about! Should I call it, 2018: the year of self discovery? What do you think?
Please do share your thoughts 🙂
Self discovery is a good title. We are in a constant mode of learning new things about the world around us, and inside ourselves too.
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That is indeed very true. Thank you for sharing the thought on the title. I appreciate it a lot. & happy new year 🌷
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My pleasure. Thanks and same wishes for you too.
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Happy New Year! Wishing you a great year ahead.
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Thank you so much. Wishing you a great 2019 as well 🙂
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I’m glad you came up with this blog piece, the year end as well the start of a new one is a stressful time for many.🥂Hope 2019 will be an even better year for you. Lots of warm wishes ☕ & a happy new year!! 💖🐿
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Indeed, year end can be stressful. But I hope no one will feel the blues for too long, this season’s almost over! 😃
Best wishes to you too. Stay warm & fight those blues! Happy new year 🎼
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Yes…self discovery it is indeed. Nice articulation of the ripples in your mind.
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Thank you so much for sharing the thought & for the appreciation 🙂
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Happy healthy New Year
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Thank you so much 🙂
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Your welcome
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Hey Binita, after reading your post I feel the title you gave towards the wrap up is apt 👍👍👍. Happy New Year and stay blessed. 😊
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Thank you so much for sharing your thought on the title, appreciate it! Wishing you a very happy new year 2019, god bless 🌷
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Welcome 2019. Wishing you a great year ahead😊
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Thank you so much & wishing you a great year ahead as well 🙂
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i like that you call yourself and this blog “educated unemployed” for i feel there are many who can call themselves the same. our overall society has pushed for education to get good jobs, yet there can only be so many jobs for any education and thus very well educated people are unemployed or employed in jobs not needing high education. we have neglected the technical side of work/jobs way too much. thus there are many jobs that go unfilled. they have become “uncool’ jobs or jobs that people have to work hard or they are “dirty” jobs so they are ignored. those jobs also are not as high pay yet they are good paying jobs.
good post
hope this year and every year is great for you.
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Indeed. I agree with you, there’s a mismatch between education & jobs. Thank you so much for sharing the great thought. I appreciate it.
I hope the new year will be full of positivity & prosperity for you. Best wishes 🌷
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Wish you and your family a happy New Year, 2019!
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Thank you so much. Happy new year to you too 🙂
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Self-discovery or reference to the next step in your journey sound good. All the best for a good 2019.
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Thank you so much for sharing the thought. Wishing you a very happy new year 🎊🎉
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Happy new year and may all your dreams come true 😊
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I wish the same for you as well. Happy new year 2019 to you too ❤︎
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Hello, I like your writing, name your blog something positive, it seems it is. Even if sometimes it may deal with less sweet things , such is life, starting out in a positive place can only be good.
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Thank you so much for sharing your kind & encouraging words, and for appreciating my writing. Best wishes 🙂
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Heres wishing you and yours a brilliant 2019!
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Thank you so much. I wish you a brilliant 2019 as well 🙂
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Sweet and happy New Year!
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Thank you so much. A very happy new year to you too ❤︎
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Nice post. You have balanced out good and bad of the year gone by. You retain considerable equanimity in not been able to land a job. At the same time you were full of praise for things that helped you come face to face with your own self. I am sure 2019 will be different and better than 2018. Even if it is not, you have mental strength to see beauty in the middle of distress.
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Thank you so much for your kind & encouraging words. I appreciate your gesture a lot. Best wishes 🙂
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Hey I can completely relate to it. I kind of loved this line “It isn’t pleasant to live inside a mind that is in turmoil.” It so resonates my though. Hope you have a better year ahead :-).
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Thank you so much for sharing your thought. It’s comforting to know you could relate to my thoughts. I hope you have a great year ahead as well. Best wishes ❤︎
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Came here little late but glad to have stumbled upon
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Thank you so much. I’m really glad you came here, nevermind the time! 🙂
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